Dream 01-27-16

Matt and I were lovers. Actually, at the beginning of the dream we didn't even know each other (odd since we lived very close to each other for a short while - even going to the same school), but once we met we got very close very quickly. This was problematic. Not just because I was married, my husband was never around anyway. His family was a tribe of nomad gypsies, mine was some kind of vampiric witches. The truce between the clans was uneasy at best. We spent most of our time together at his place. The only person around was his little sister and she didn't care about the clan politics.

Aside from being extremely physically close, we also shared parts of our family's rituals with each other. At one point he smeared blood on my arm (just a few drops) while showing me... I think it was some kind of leather shield. He was going to put it on top of the house "like it used to be" for when his brother came back. That's when I remembered seeing the big yellow house with the "big bear shield" as a kid. I think my 'remembering' is also what started the following trouble.

We spent the night curled up together in a big comfy chair. At first light someone kicked in the door and grabbed him. His sister was crying but managed something about someone building some kind of factory on their land? I tried to keep up, but there was a lot of commotion. We ran into a brand-new building, it was large and grey. I thought, "this doesn't make any sense" and suddenly I knew why. It wasn't some weird land takeover. It was a trial. My grandmother saved a seat for me, but then an elder counsel member told me to "grab the counter"... with an unspoken "like when you were a kid". That's when I realized I was the one on trial.

I was forced to stand naked in front of both tribes and the elder counsel with the "counter" and answer an onslaught of very invasive, not to mention painful, questions. Most weren't even about the affair, though some were. It took me a while to piece together, but I was being accused of summoning something. But I didn't! "you've been touched by the blood of a gimp"... I could feel the spot grow warm on my arm, but managed to maintain my composure. The only thing that saved me was the final part of the ritual involved sex. A certain kind. We hadn't had sex, though. My mother snarled, but the counter doesn't lie and I had to be let go. I dropped the counter and it was then that I 'realized' that this was the fourth time my mother had put me through one of these trials, the first when I was maybe four?

I looked to Matt for comfort, but there was none. At some time during the trial he had become cold toward me... or something, because he snapped back and chased after me when I ran (still naked) from the room. I searched for some place to cry in peace, but there was none. He cornered me easily, grabbed my arms and... I don't know. I suddenly found myself in front of a mirror with three blonde women vampire-witches of varying ages. They were talking about their hair. I woke up a little confused and somewhat upset.

Dream 01-23-16

I think I was out in California with Brak and Panda. Not together, just we were all there. Brak and I were supposed to go out to eat, I think, but she got herself whipped up into a hunger frenzy. I was writing about it to someone, but kept screwing up the words. My handwriting was not great.

While Brak ate all the food I ducked out to check on Panda at his apartment/hotel. It was getting late and kind of dark. I tried to call and got no answers. I heard ethereal singing coming from somewhere nearby and rapid footsteps. To my right I saw him coming around the corner looking frenzied; I thought he got locked out of his room, but he said "no". Maybe the singing got to him? Or maybe it was the bear that seemed to come out of nowhere stalking us around a van.

Dream 01-19-16

I was in a fairly swanky neighborhood hanging out with one of my girl friends after school. She reminded me of Bethany (except this girl was from India) and, now that I think about it - I feel like I've dreamt that neighborhood before. The large stone house in the center seems especially familiar. Anyway, mostly we just hung out at her place. She had a lot of brothers, a couple of sisters and her mom was there, too. I don't recall seeing her dad. A couple of times her mom had us help her try to sell these cordless headphones. They were a bit big and heavier on one side because of the battery pack. The first time we went door-to-door, but the second time we weren't allowed to do that anymore. Mostly we walked the neighborhood talking loudly about the headphones trying to catch someone's attention. It didn't work so we just talked about how it was our last semester at school and how we could probably rob some of the bigger houses and no one would notice.



Aaron and I were in a van - I was driving. It was really dark night time, but the neighborhood seemed really familiar. I was driving topless, at one point getting completely naked. I drove aimlessly, partly because I was enjoying myself, partly because I was lost. I wanted Aaron to pleasure me, but he was "doing something" and "didn't want to get caught".

Dream 01-17-16

I went to visit Matt who was living in a super swanky apartment highrise on top of a mall. The furniture was weird, all polished wood and no cushions. We were having a great time, though, just hanging out. I laid down on this very ornate... bench and was about to take a nap when the doorbell rang. I heard a female voice, but didn't think much of it... until she kept getting closer and closer. I scooched along the bench trying to keep some distance between us, but she persisted. Finally I got up and walked to the bathroom. She followed. Everywhere I went she was right behind me chittering away. Finally I asked him what was going on and he said, "I just want you to love her so we can all be together"... I ran. Right out the door. She chased me. For what felt like hours I ran up and down stairs, through the mall, pushing past people. So many stairs... elevators, ramps. Finally I got outside. There was a man with a gun. I told him he wanted the chick behind me. I don't know if he shot her or not, but he didn't shoot me so I kept running trying to stay in the shadows.

Dream 01-14-16

Mom was cleaning out the house. Seriously taking everything out, scrubbing the walls and floors, painting even. I couldn't even question it, just did what I could to help. I opened my car and started putting blankets and couch cushions (from our old, wood-framed couch) in the trunk. A giant roach the size of a dinner plate crawled out of somewhere and I had to use a cutting board to kill it. I was so grossed out I just left it there on the pavement. While I was trying to move the car seats mom came out and angrily shoved an ill-covered plate of food into my hands. She said something about wanting to reheat it and tupperware lids. John and Leila were in a car nearby. Aaron and I went to talk to them. I don't remember what was said, but I left feeling like trash. I noticed a bird pecking at the giant roach. We got into the car and drove off.

I think we ended up at a Walmart in Canada. Nina was working there and so was some guy who looked familiar. Jaime, maybe? There was some big scandal about Walmart taking certain stock, filling up a warehouse and renting it out for bigger profit. It was common knowledge in the dream, and mostly frowned upon, but the employees had to make it sound like a huge great deal and get people to sign up for it. Nina asked if we'd heard about "what they (Walmart) are doing for New Years". I said I had and she got all excited and grabbed a paper to try and sign us up. It was a loan application to entice us to rent more stuff. I kept making excuses when a guy walked by and handed her a piece of paper. It said "they're POOR". She went on a rant about how "you people should have to announce yourselves when you walk in so we don't waste our time". Aaron was incredibly upset and I was mortified. I wanted to retort, but just couldn't...

On the ride back Aaron was about to start in on his "I hate money" rant and I cut him off. I tried explaining how much he could make and all the stuff we could do. We ended up driving home, on an appropriately icy road, in silence.

Dream 01-13-16

I had a fish tank... sort of. It was flimsy plastic and the bottom fell out. I tried hard to save the fish, but then I realized I couldn't put them in just any water. I fixed the tank and got it ready for new fish. They came like brine shrimp all dehydrated in bottles and came back to life when I put them in the water.

Dream 01-11-16

I was running and gunning through this huge, old, messed up building Fallout-style. It was dark, which helped my stealth. The thing I din't get is that I was hiding from (and shooting at) my friends, too. I don't know what happened, but I was in a panic to get away from everyone. Whenever I heard someone I recognized I hid deep in the comforting shadows hoping they would go away. If they persisted I had no problem dispatching them. I could see, and grab if I wanted, stuff that was in drawers or boxes - just like the game. In one eerily moonlit room, however, I came upon a locked desk drawer. I tried to pick the lock, but couldn't figure out how to get it to work. I couldn't stay there all day, so I left down a dark, empty hall and made my way onto a rickety bridge outside. I shot at, and missed, an enemy three times before waking up.

Dream 01-10-16

There was some kind of disaster. Earthquake, maybe? Sandra was missing. I guess it was dark when we went looking and mom said we (she?) couldn't get into the school where she was supposed to be. It felt like days later when she decided to find someone "official" for help. On the way to (or back from) the offices I decided that I had to check the building myself. There were people going in and out, so I went in. It was pretty crowded and seemed like the kids thought they had formed their own community. I didn't find her before I woek up, but I remember thinking she could have been there because of the Girl Scout rule that if you get lost or separated just stay where you are.

Dream 01-09-16

There was a part where I was texting Billy and he was super excited about talking to some other chick who had three nipples... or boobs... not really sure. He just kept bringing her up.

Most of the dream was me, my mom and my sisters were "babysitting" some store. It was like a movie theater with part of a Walgreens in the back. It was really dark, nearly pitch black, and at one point I was sure everyone was asleep so I started just grabbing stuff and putting it in my backpack. At one point my mom woke up and turned on the lights, but no one caught me and she was just trying to change the movie or something.

Dream 01-05-16

In the beginning there was some guy that disappeared. People weren't sure if we were going to be okay, but we were. There was some other guy who was being mean to everybody, and I tried to keep everyone cheery and together. There was a weird exercise machine on a hill that looked like a large alien bug that I was trying to teach this girl how to use.

At one point I was in a public bathroom. I snuck into a stall that was behind the normal row of stalls so I could eavesdrop on a conversation two other ladies were having, but then a group of people came in and the front of my stall came off. I tried to hold it up, but it was warped and broken.

There was more. A part with some kind of housing simulation and a part when I think I was working in a grocery store, but I don't remember much else.

Dream 01-04-16

So many bits and pieces. I remember a stack of boxes. Big stack. I tried to move them and discovered they were hiding a door or something. There was some kind of clinic. Something about a little girl. I think it rained.

Dream 01-01-16

There was a movie playing on the wall to my right. I hope it was a movie, because it was pretty disturbing. There were several sick, elderly Asian women with vacant eyes being "treated" by someone "off camera". Some women had hot pans pressed to their ears, I think others were being electrocuted. I tried not to look, but I could tell it was still playing.